i gotta get my sh*t together! 

for the last little while….(or for quite possibly my whole life) I have felt like I have no idea who I am or where I am going and what I am doing. I think the same repetitive thoughts about myself and my life but get no where.  I repeat the same mistakes over and over again but I also know all the right ways to get on top of things and turn my life around.  So I do those things and feel like my life is totally heading in the right direction and that I am ‘winning’ and then somehow I fall off and I am back in the hating on myself train.  This is wearing me out and I want to be more on the positive train rather than the hate one.   If anyone has some tips or a similar story to share I would love to hear it. 

So for now I am starting back on the positive line and I am determined to stay on that train for as long as humanly and hormonally possible. 🖖🏻

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HOME SWEET HOME!!!

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!! WE BOUGHT OUR FIRST HOUSE!! I still can’t actually believe it, I seems to good to be true but it is true and I am living the dream.   I still don’t have the internet connected at home (connected this friday) but I am visiting at my mums and scabbing the internet off of them so I can do some work and while I am here I thought I would give you all a quick update as to why I have been so absent from wordpressland 🙂

I will write some more and fill you all in once our internet is on and I have more time to write.  I really need to do some work so I can get paid and pay my home loan! ahahah xxx

H O M E and H E A L T H

In my last post I mentioned our plan for buying a place of our own in May to save our sanity.  I chose to wait three more months instead of buying right away as we needed the extra savings to have 10% house deposit and so we could also have a great savings history and sort out some other things like desexing our dog.  We have been looking at different units and townhouses in the areas we like so we are more educated in what a good price is as well as what we want for our first place and what we are willing to compromise on.

At the start of this month I viewed a unit(condo) in Mermaid Beach that I could really see us being happy in, so we ended up making an appointment with the broker earlier than planned.  Since then, we have been in regular contact with the broker and the real estate agent as there have been several issues and setbacks towards getting pre-approval for a home loan.  Luckily the unit(condo) is still available but we might miss it as we are waiting for paperwork to come through for us.  Even if we miss this unit, I trust that the right one will show up for us, I am just really glad that we have begun this process as it takes way longer than I thought it would!  So if anyone out there is in the same stage and hasn’t talked to a broker about pre-approval yet and all the documentation you need, then I would get on to it!! We had talked to a broker earlier on but more as an enquiry into what deposits we would need and what our price range would be but apparently some bank criteria has changed and loans are harder to come by at the moment.  So many people that I have talked to have said that it seems so hard to get through the pre-approval process.

I have been keeping up with our 52 week savings game so we have cash for Xmas and also saving $100 a week for our snow trip in August as well as saving for our house.  I do have to go out today and buy our little girl some warm onsies for winter this year.  She is rapidly outgrowing all her clothes, so I have to get a few onesies, tights and singlets.  She kicks off all blankets so I don’t bother with them anymore so I have to make sure she is warm enough without them while she sleeps.  The onesies are also great under her snowsuit.  Our new car is still awesome too, and I am looking forward to driving down south to the snow in it!

In other news, I have been suffering from daily migraines for months, and it seemed to be getting worse.  I had an intuitive thought recently that giving up dairy may help and looking into it, dairy is a food that causes inflammation and all sorts of issues for a lot of people let alone the problems it causes the cows 😩….I do prefer a vegan life and I have always felt great when vegan – I had taken to drinking a lot of cows milk when pregnant and had kept this up during breastfeeding as I would crave it.  Anyway, I thought it was worth a try so gave it a go.  I seemed to go through a full on dairy detox and I had stomach problems and bad headaches for the first 6 days but am now feeling the best I have in a very very long time and I lost 1.5kilograms in that week!

My husband is also doing well without gluten in his diet and has had more energy and lost weight because of the change.  I also like gluten free eating although I am not as strict on this for me and our baby.  I definitely notice the difference but geez gluten free and vegan products really empty the wallet!  Although I have found that if you stick to mostly to wholefoods then it isn’t so expensive.  Hopefully when we are finally in our own kitchen I can try making some gf breads too!

I am so looking forward to having our own space again.  I belong at the beach and living away from parents!  Yesterday Lennox and I had the day to ourselves at home.  It has been ages since we got to do that and I had forgotten how important that time is to me and for her.  I loved it.  It will be so awesome to be back at our beach every day and spending time together.

I hope you all have a safe holiday season 🌞

 

 

 

things are looking up 🌞

My last couple of posts have been a bit negative nancy so I thought I should focus on and write about the great things that have happened lately.  Firstly, my husband and I have made a deadline for when we get outta here (my mum’s).  Its in 3 months – end of May-  as long as all goes well with getting a loan and finding the right place.  We decided that a deadline is what we needed to keep ourselves sane enough to continue being here and it allow us to plan and knuckle down to save enough for our new place.  Our relationship has definitely benefited from this and we are doing well.

Secondly, I sold a dreamcatcher I made on etsy!! It is my first sale and I am so excited and motivated by this.  It has spurred me on to make more pretties and work harder at getting new things into my shop more often.  Today I went and bought a few more hoops to make more dreamers as I didn’t have any to make new ones.  Here is a pic of my packaged and ready to send dreamcatcher.

first sale

I added a handful of little crystals and a shell and silver mermaid to the package for something a little extra to say thankyou to the buyer.  I really hope she loves it, I put so much love into these and it is always scary to put yourself out there and be open to judgement.

Thirdly, and very excitingly, we traded in Brett’s mazda and bought a new(ish) car!!! It’s a 2012 Toyota RAV4 and it is in immaculate condition and very very low kms for its age and has 3 year warranty as well as lots of other little perks.  We are so happy about it and it is going to be perfect for all of the driving that we do and for going to the snow.  I am totally in love with it and so is Brett.  It also has enough room for another bub if we are lucky enough to be blessed again.  We decided to do this as the mazda was needing quite a bit of work and was getting quite old and had done over 300000kms. It kind of ends up cheaper for us just to buy this and spend only $80 a week on the repayments rather than spend thousands trying to fix up the mazda.  Anyway, here it is…..

new car

thanks for reading…. I will probably be posting pics of all our little trips in this baby from now on! hahahah ✌

wow,that was a bad day.

I should have stayed home, I even said to my mum that I didn’t want to go anywhere today but I did because today is swimming lesson day for Lennox.  So I leave the house and drive to swimming, I had trouble getting a park near the pool thanks to council works so I parked much further away.  I was not feeling very good so I thought I would pick up a coffee on the way.  Lennox was a bit whingey and I was trying to get her and her swimming bag out of the car and I locked my bag containing my car keys, wallet and phone in the car.  My head was just not right today.  So anyway, after some attempts to break into my own car by myself and some lovely strangers, I decided I would have to join up for roadside assistance $180!! and get them to come and open my car as I had no choice 😭. I did get to have that coffee though we didn’t make it to swimming unfortunately.

It is also my mum’s birthday today and my husband’s on saturday, so I wanted to pick up a nice present for them today…. I chose an expensive perfume for my mum and asked to have it gift wrapped – it looked really nice. I gave it to mum and she opened it, and it wasn’t the perfume I chose at all!!! Now I have to go back and try and get an exchange even though it has been opened.  OMG I should have stayed home. 🎻

valentines day sucked

I hope everyone had a better day than me for valentines day, mine was awful and I am just so exhausted by it.  It didn’t really matter that it was Valentines day, it was just a crap day.  My husband and I argued all day.  We have been arguing a lot in the last couple of months and this environment is really taking its toll on us.  This is really getting me down and I have really lost a lot of motivation and don’t want to do anything except sleep the day away – although I am not sleeping well at all lately.  I can’t spend the day doing that though as I have my precious little toddler keeping me up and at em 😍.   Hopefully things improve between us and he stops being so irritable at me,  I hope our relationship gets stronger when the going gets tough and doesn’t fall apart.  💔

what i did while wordpress was outta my life

When I couldn’t access wordpress and I was going stir crazy with nothing to do with my limited free time and I needed a creative outlet, I made stuff and started an etsy store 💰 called Mermaid Militia .  I need to put more time into setting up my store and I have given gifts of most of the things I make, but I hope to make a bit of cash on the side to help with our savings.  Mostly I just really enjoy the meditation of tuning in and being creative.  Here is some photos of stuff I have made 😏

amethystearrings

orangedreamerI have had great feedback from what I have made but am yet to make a sale hahaha anyway, it’s fun.  Now I have to go and make dinner🌈✌